i'm so dead

omg!!!
wht is in ur mind,ccl???
i'm so stress up!!!
finals is jus around the corner n i've wasted how many days not studying???
my mind is keep telling me 2 study....ccl!!!study study study!!!
but but....when i open the book,i got shocked!cos i dun understand a thing!damn it!can any1 help me???
gosh i dunnno wht i do in tis whole semester 2>????wht have i learnt???lolz~~
i know ntg bout economics!!!i dunno wht to study though mr wong gave sum tips n i got the pass yr question.but how???how to start???gosh it may sound funny or weird!!but seriously can any1 tell me how to study econs???i'm so dead n i dowan to fail my econs.i use to get A 4 econs in my hi skool.but!!so wht???now its totally different econs tht i've learnt!
2day we got our results 4 acc!man~~i cnt believe it....i done badly!!i consider tht very bad!29.5/50!!!means i gotta get 40/50 in finals...can tht be possible??i dun dare to think of it???acc is my 1 n only hope to get A n shit!i screwed up!!perhaps i being too over confident ler!huhuhuhuh....i wanna cry!!!
exams!exams!exams!
it is killling me now!!!i dun wanna live anymore....awww!!!!{jkla)
aku geram ni!!y is my brain so slow n sumtimes it dun work properly!!!gosh i'm so stupid ni!!!!belasah la me!!!!
god!!!!plse let me pass sem 2,i dowan to retake!!!

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disappointed on u

wht the hell???

i'm so so disappointed in u...

i love u for wht u r n i dun mind tht u dun love me...

i dun expect anything frm u either...i jus wanna love u..

but u seems like keep pushing me to other ppl..dun u know its fucking hurtful???

its ok if once in a while u try to create jokes but i told u not to n i really cnt accept tis anymore...

i know i'm annoying to u sumtimes i tend to bother u all the time but u dun need to do all this to get rid of me..

u can tell me directly..I DUN MIND!!!{if u want it tht way n u will feel happy tht way...its fine with me}

before i thought we can be real cool frens,talk like mad fellas n fight lik sakai...hmmm...maybe to u,i'm just a nobody..not even a close fren!!!

my frens have told me tht i shouldn't be bothering u but i can't control myself for being stupid n my intention is to be only close frens wit u!!

1 word-disappointed!!!~~~

dull day

i'm so sleepy for the whole day!!!i'm freaking tired!!!i'm fucking bored!!!
ystdy i plan to stay up to study p.i.o n guess wht i fall asleep at about 2sumthing.fuck it!!!y m i so un-motivated???argh!!

2day is a pretty dull day!!i dunno y but i jus feel tht i'm so lost n i'm not interested in anything.sumtimes i wonder whts in my mind???maybe i miss him a lot..aww~!!wtf???

hmmm...aft class,cas cried again b'cos of him..i felt so sad to c her lik tht.but too bad i can't do anything to cheer her up.no1 will understand her feelings well besides herself.ystdy she told me she rather lik me hav a childish relationship{he can fool around wit me n nvr avoid me} but when u're in my situation,u wont wan tis kinda relationship anymore..i felt lonely too when he doesn't fool around wit me+we seldom or rather nvr hang out b4..we only sms n msn+gaduh-ing...human beings r lik tht.they often c ppl's happiness but not their own..*sigh* tis including me,ccl!!

well well...azy the black bear is there for her but too bad he's jus a shoulder to lean on.huhuhuhu...2day is a pretty lame day!!!sorry to say tht!!at 1st i plan to go home early to study my fucking p.i.o!!hmmm...but i just can't leave cas alone though gdah n azy is ther 4 her..i jus feel bad!!so i tend to stay..we ate lunch at yoshinoya..ssshhhh~~~las fri i just ate at yoshinoya!!!aft tht we watch pirates of the caribbean..~yea!again!!~n guess wht....my purse left only 6 bucks for another fucking 2 days[tomolo n thurs]...argh!!nvm!!!i slept in the cinema 70% of the time..n man~~its freakin cold..i have gotta stuff my hands in my bag...*sigh*

finally...go home at 6 n reach home at 6.45..not bad huh???aft taking bath n settle down,i went to sleep again.gosh~~P.I.O ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!then daddy came bec at 9 n mom make noise ask me to eat dinner...i dowan to eat but hav to oso.damn it!!n now i got terrible headache...i am waiting for him to appear but hmmm....he din appear at all tonite.its ok!!!i bet he's being a nerd now...100%!but but....i miss him loads....nvm!!tomolo i will seeing his idiotic look again..huhuhuhu..i hate him for asking me to accept other ppl..i'm confused whts his motive???argh!!!forget bout it..man~~he sms me...uhuh~~

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huhuhuhuh.....
y is all my frens oso got problems nowadays???
i felt terrible sad b'cos of them..i dowan to c any of them to be so sad...
maybe i've been through all the sadness till i dun have any feelings towards things that happen to me now.
i wanted to cry out loud but y not tears frm my eyes??sumtimes i feel lik i'm so cruel!!!i dun wan to be lik tis...i dowan to hold my tears..it is much painful than anything..i wish i can release all my temper on a sandbag like las time in wushu..thats y i love wushu loads.it is gud to release stress....tht day cas n gdah said i'm strong n i can bertahan though i'm hurt...hmmm..i can tell u seriously i'm not as strong as u c!!no1 know the pain in my heart!!being the youngest in the family n having 2 stepmoms+2 stepbrothers isnt anything to be proud of.loving sum1 tht dun luv me isnt anything great too...having many "cum n go" frens is ntg special either...tell me wht shud i do????i felt like i'm a loser!!!
i know i'm childish to post tis blog but i jus can't help it!@!
i hope my frens will be fine soon.
cas,gm,tracy,adel,cs n evry1.....

energized friday

ystdy 1 of my fren is terribly unhappy n it really sadden me...
i c her cry frm morning till evening..
i can't do anything besides accompanying her.i felt lik i'm a loser!!i dun even know how to console or pamper her???gosh!!how can i be tht cruel??
wht i can do is jus pray tht she will soon recover n get over wit it.
"u're sad so do me..at least u get the care tht u wan frm him though it is only temporary illusion.."

well well..forget bout the unhappy stufz..
ystdy i was so terribly hurt n sad...
1stly perhaps its the influence frm my buddy as she's crying n crying tht make me tink about ???...
2ndly he din bother to reply me..huh!!as usual the "think too much lady" will tot sumthing is wrong..
at nite,he chat wit me in msn...i felt much much better n i told him loads bout me..then i sleep welll till tis noon.hmm now it is already 2.15!i have nvr sleep tht well for ages n 2day i felt energized...wakaka..
later i'm goin KL to have dinner wit my daddy.