i love u

i realise i love u again n again n again....
i jus dunno how to describe the feeling.
i want u more than anything but i know it will nvr ever happen...
i dunno how to make u love me.
i also dowan to force u but i jus cnt keep it to myself.
i wanna know evrything about u though u dun even care to let me know.
i wanna care for u but u dun nid any care frm me at all.
if i could do anything to win ur heart,i tink i will do it!!!
again..i know its impossible cos i'm not ur type at all.
no matter how hard i try,my effort will not bring any results.
therefore,i jus hope we can be real close frens.
if u have any problems,u can share wit me n so do i.
i know there are many lies in ur words but i tend to believe evry single word of urs.
yeah!stupidity describes me!!
a simple word of urs can make my day go special...
a smile frm u brighten up my life..
plse dun be a stranger to me..
it hurts a lot..
plse dun be afraid of me..
i'm jus hoping to be real close frens...
i got no other intention AT ALL!!!

LOVE U ALWAYS..

fraser's slide show

fraser's here i cum

omg!!!!
i cnt sleep!!!perhaps i'm too excited for tomolo's trip....
yeap!!we're goin fraser's hill tomolo wit fc30+fc32!!!
i hope it will be fun...
its been a long time i din go for any trip...
guess since las year penang trip wit billy...
hmmm....kinda tension now cos there's a lot of things to bring...
me n casyne are discussing on things to bring n not to bring till now!!!
gosh!!!many of us r still here online!!!
r they excited or jus canot sleep???
i dun tink i'm excited but i dunno y i cnt sleep leh???


*hope it will be an enjoyable n fun trip.....*

unsolved problems

problems!problems!problems!!!
there are so many unsolved problems bec haunting me...
i cnt sleep well nowadays n i act nothing happen in front of my frens...
i reli dowan to show how useless m i...but i jus cnt help it n blog it out here!!

i'm afraid of loving him again or rather deeply in love wit him.
*he's nothing special nor good*
i try my vry hard to forget him and now the feeling is bec..
i know no matter how much i do,i cnt change the reality and the fact..
i totally understand tis!!!
but,y i cnt act like a normal fren wit him???
the feeling is so strange to face him.y m i so foolish???
y mus i alw blog bout him???"nan tau ze ke si jie mei you pie ren rang wo sing tong de ma???"

well..family problems...
i reli miss the feeling of care by a bro..
he's not my real bro n i dunno the care for me is real or not...
i was born in a doubtful family n i cnt reli differentiate true or fake???
i'm alw under pressure to succeed in my studies as both bro are kononnya smart..
thts y i m alw left out...
i know dad have done many things 4 me,but...
maybe i'm too demanding n i shud not!!!

the major problem for me now is my studies...
i know i will do badly in tis sem...
i dun hv the mood to study n ntg went inside my brain.
whts in my brain???wht m i thinking???

can any1 tell me wht shud i do???
who will help me???
who will care for me???
who is willing to be there for me???
............................

how i wish i could sleep forever....
when i sleep,i dun hav to worry about anything..
i knw tis kinda thinking sounds so naive n childish!!!
i'm hoping for a better life soon!!!

blank mind

nowadays i'm so lost!!!
i reli dunno wht i want!!!
i simply feel so stressful n my head is like gonna burst!!!
where's all my beloved???
my beloved r my best buddies!!!they r all busy wit their stuffs rite now..
i cnt c my dear dear as often like as i work in goggles ler...
tis is y i felt sad to leave goggles...
actually i miss working wit nicky too...i tink she's kinda nice though she 24/7 full of UNHEALTHY words!
as i said earlier,i work not mainly b'cos of money...i dun mind the salary is low,i jus wanna kill time besides earning sum money to put into my bank!
i've been quite stressful while working n sum frens claim tht i've change!
1st of all,i wanna know how i changeD???seriously i dun tink there's any negative changes in me.

aft qutting goggles,i felt even more lost....
i began to feel boring,lonely n STRESS!
recently i've start driving to college..
well...aft 2 months having car,i finally got the guts to drive to college..
~sigh~
i know i might sound foolish to say tis,but i jus can't help it..
i'm reli afraid of driving!!!my dad told me tht mistakes on the road cnt be forgiven!!it's between life n death...
gosh!!!it sounds eeeewwWWW=scary!!!therefore,i mus be damn alert!
i'm hoping tht i'll have safely journey evryday~~~~