unsolved problems

problems!problems!problems!!!
there are so many unsolved problems bec haunting me...
i cnt sleep well nowadays n i act nothing happen in front of my frens...
i reli dowan to show how useless m i...but i jus cnt help it n blog it out here!!

i'm afraid of loving him again or rather deeply in love wit him.
*he's nothing special nor good*
i try my vry hard to forget him and now the feeling is bec..
i know no matter how much i do,i cnt change the reality and the fact..
i totally understand tis!!!
but,y i cnt act like a normal fren wit him???
the feeling is so strange to face him.y m i so foolish???
y mus i alw blog bout him???"nan tau ze ke si jie mei you pie ren rang wo sing tong de ma???"

well..family problems...
i reli miss the feeling of care by a bro..
he's not my real bro n i dunno the care for me is real or not...
i was born in a doubtful family n i cnt reli differentiate true or fake???
i'm alw under pressure to succeed in my studies as both bro are kononnya smart..
thts y i m alw left out...
i know dad have done many things 4 me,but...
maybe i'm too demanding n i shud not!!!

the major problem for me now is my studies...
i know i will do badly in tis sem...
i dun hv the mood to study n ntg went inside my brain.
whts in my brain???wht m i thinking???

can any1 tell me wht shud i do???
who will help me???
who will care for me???
who is willing to be there for me???
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how i wish i could sleep forever....
when i sleep,i dun hav to worry about anything..
i knw tis kinda thinking sounds so naive n childish!!!
i'm hoping for a better life soon!!!