the feeling is getting deeper n deeper

i feel like i'm really in love wit him..though its only few days knowing him n i wont have chance to meet him tht often...i dunno y nowadays we seems like stranger in msn..we din chat like we did las time.no more nonsense n all..we're talkin bout all the lame n serious topic..

ystdy he were asking y m i upset???i din wanna tell him..takkan i tell him is b'cos of him mar...he kept persuade me to tell,say aft say out will feel better n he even say he wanna know badly...i'm so naive to believe him,of cos hoping tht he really care!bt think again...who m i to him???jus a fren's fren tht he know not long ago...jus a msn fren..jus a stranger tht passsed by his life??

actually i wanted to tell him bout sum of my problems,bt when i wanna tell,he seems lik so busy n all.i gotta admit tht it's quite late nite already.bt...when i ask him,y not sleeping yet..he said soon,yet he still there 4 bout half an hour.i'm waiting 4 his approach.i wan his attention badly,desperately...!!!bt,how to show my feelings to him???i'll scare him away!!i'm reli hurt!!seriously hurt!!i tink of him evry single minute.

ystdy he told my fren he's goin to yum cha..i was wondering y he can chat wit my fren,not me.i'm not jealous or wht,bt y din he approach me???wht have i done wrong???did i irritate him???am i bothering him???or maybe i'm yong sui to him???-nt pretty enuf or nt cool enuF!!!can any1 tell me???if he really hates me,i promise i wont bother him anymore.

i know its to early to say tht i love him,bt the feeling is getting deeper....i jus wanna talk to him like my heng dai!!!tht oso so difficult..haihz..

ystdy around 11 sumthing tracy bring me to ss2-murni...there were loads of ppl there.i keep looking for him,i din see him till when we found a place to sit.once i wanna sit,i saw him...gosh!!!i quickly switch place,my back facing him.i'm nt sure whether he see me not.i wanted to go n say hi,bt i dun have the courage to do so.n i'm afraid tht he'll be "huh!!!who r u???"...i can only c him tru side view..i really really wanna talk to him de leh...i wud use the word desperately..haihz....y m i like tht???y y y y y y y????????????????????????????????????????

~chercher~

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i finally let go my feelings to him{1}...i finally realise tht he's such a shiat!!!sorry to say tht!!!its not about his look or wht,but the attitude tht bother me a lot.i really cnt believe tht i can love a shiat guy 4 tis long...
*uhuh!!forget bout him{1}*

i found tht i fallen in love wit him{2}...he seems so chunted 4 me when the 1st time i saw him!!!maybe u can say i only look at his appearance...yeap!!i admit it!!he's seriously driving me crazy only by the look of his..i dunno~~in my opinion,he's the guy{i mean tis kinda look!} tht i'm looking for....he's totally different frm the previous guy tht i've blinded by...i gotta say tht he's damn yeng!!{to me lar...}*hahah*then,i take the opportunity to add him by using fake account..i jus wanna know wht kinda person is he b4 letting him know who m i...*lolz*after chatting wit him 4 more than 2 hours,i'm getting seriously in love wit him..i know i'm darn crazy!!i wud say he's the choice of the guy tht i look for..the way he talk...oh so freaking yeng,sweet,cool n all the chunted words u can find to describe him...at last,i told him about my true identity cos i dowan to cheat him..i wan him to know who is he reli chatting to..i tink it's important!!he forgive me...
we chat 4 few days already n i'm missing him like crazy evry single moment..gues i'm in love again!!!woo hoo!!!but i dare not put too much hope in it ler...though i hope tht tis time will work out!!
but..there's sumthing i'm vry disappointed in him is...his fren{my fren oso lar..}said tht he's a playboy...he got loads of gf!!!omg!!!m i falling for the wrong guy again???its not tht i wanna be 1 of his gf,but i jus hope tht i wont fall 4 a NOT-WORTH-LOVING GUY!!!i jus hope tht i'll be real close frens wit him...i wanna know more bout him n his true identity...hope tht i'll hav tht chance...
I MISS HIM SO MUCH!!!!

~chercher~