wht happen to my MSN???

ARGH......
i can't sign in my msn!!!!
how can i live without my msn???
uhuhuh....
i cnt sign in my frensta too....
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.......................................

hmmm...thts y i'm stuck here blogging...
i cnt do anything online besides blogging...
i cnt log in any other website....wht happen to my connection or pc or the website or whtsoever...i dunno eh!!!
how how how????

okla let me cerita my day 2day...
morning semangat wake up wanna go shopping in 1u wit ah fei!!!
then she sms me say no money la tis la tht la...*told her its ok d ma,i got ma!!yer!!*summore she said wasting time go window shopping!!!zd!!!dahla i'm the 1 driving n gotta loan her money..she summore wanna make noise.sumtimes i feel lik smacking her...*
suppose to go midvalley 1 but then tink tink better go 1u la cos i'm more familiar wit the road,parking n the place ma...
hmmm....i target so many bajuSSS ler n sum short pants..
will bring my daddy to go shopping so tht he can pay the bill ma.*ehehheh....*i mean my real daddy lar not mel mel{fake dd}
anyway dad promise me tht he gimme budget rm300 for clothes ma...hope he mean it la,cos he alw "tam" me happy only....huhuhuh
me n fei went for lunch in nando's...yummy yummy!!!-pau pau- =.=
aft makan,then continue walk walk lo....
then i gotta decide between nike or adidas bag...
finally i chose adidas for my belated belated belated b'day present...belated 4 5 months d...
so,adel make a deal wit me sayin tht she wan nike hand bag 4 her b'day instead.her b'day is on 31st dec..wow!its vry near...she said she wan it by jan...so i mai say lo wait till aft cny,let me save sum money 1st ma.furthermore,she oso postpone my present for months d lo.so its fair ma,rite???okla maybe u can say i'm materialistic but sorry lar...if i gt money,u wan me buy now oso no prob but.....haihz...
guess wht???end up i gotta treat her a piece of cake...ppl wan secret recipe summore,then i've no idea where's it so jus go coffee bean lo.i dun mind belanja her but sumtimes tink bec....is it really worth??especially when ppl dun appreciate it!!!i've been vry vry patient wit her though sumtimes i might say sumthing tht is kinda harsh...but....there's alw a BUT!!try to be in my shoes...
yet she can say i can do anything for HIM but nvr to her...wtf????!!!
who the 1 alw lend money to her???who the 1 belanja her??who the 1 fetch her to coll???who the 1 let her watch "devil beside me" in my hse though mom dun lik it???who the 1 let her sleep over when she had arguments at home???
i cnt deny tht she help me b4 oso but does she nid to say lik as if i die for a guy???
i'm willing to help any of my frens if they nid my help!!!i promise no matter who ask for my help n its beyond my "nang lik"{i cnt tink whts tis word in english at the moment.will update when i tink bout it..*heheh*},i will help...
i'm writing all tis is not to show how great i m,but i jus feel tht my effort is not being appreciate instead its being forgotten....even worse is ppl use my weakness to take advantage...i wont wan to mention whts bout it...i jus feel hurt....
i dun mind if u dun repay wht i've done,but at least appreciate n not critisize me when i'm unable to help.i'm happy enuf tht i get sweets for wht i've done 4 sum1..{ehehhehe itupun i ugut him 1...so bad lar me..but i tak force him ma...even he nvr buy oso,i'm ok but will be a bit dissappointed lar...}
i alw give in simply b'cos i dun lik to argue,tht doesnt mean tht i'm afraid of sumthing or whtsoever..i know sum ppl will say i'm stupid for being so easily give in...on the other hand,when i try to be a little cruel,they will jus forget wht goods tht i've done.there begin the conflicts
i'm so dissappointed in human's behaviour including myself...
~haihz~
*i know i'm full of crapssss.....call me crappy!!*

kesan-kesan kebosanan

*thts the effect of boredom....*

growin fungus

huhuh holidays is so unpleasant for me...
hmmm maybe thts the effect of boredom..
i tend to tink too much n make myself so miserable..
i began to feel tht i'm lonely n no1 care for me.
even worse,i feel tht i got no frens.argh!!!whts wit me???
i'm being a paranoid!!!!
i miss my frens frm hi skool n oso college peeps...
i realise i can't stand alone,i nid companion...
at the same time,i notice tht i din reli appreciate it when they're wit me..
oh i'm so contradict!!!
life is lik tht,it can be complicated yet so simple.
*wht the heck m i crapping here???*
okies back off!!!!

kinda settle down

evrything is kinda settle down now...
but..i'm still worry tht tragedy will happen again...
i hope it will nvr happen again.it's much more hurt than anything else..
i dowan myself to be in the tragedy oso.i will make sure myself wont be in tht situation too...i cnt guarantee but i will try my best..i will be strong!!!
*i would not mention wht is exactly happen as i dowan any1 to know!*
anyway its now over!@!dun worry!!!dun ask me!!!


2day i was dreaming all day long in college...i dunno wht i'm thinking...
i even go the wrong way frm adeline's college to my college n go the wrong way to gdah's hse...luckily i manage to reach coll on time.
omg!!!n miss ang n miss cristal call my name!!its lik "cherlynn!!!!"
aww!!i know i've been dreaming all day long..gosh its so embarassing!!

aiya i dunno wht to blog d la....
sien sien sien@@!!

oh yeah kinda sad tht mel mel cnt join us in yr 1...he gotta go study diploma...
iyooo y mus he be so honest to show his real result wo???
oh my mel mel daddy....
i wonder wht the class will be nex yr...louie n penguin will be leaving too..
penguin-my sis in law...
haihz i cnt to do anything to stop them frm leaving...they have their rights to choose their future..
however,they will remain in my heart forever n ever wit all the memories wit them.
maybe we might not be tht close anymore aft not seeing each other or for a long time or we might not c each other anymore.but their excistence will alw remain in my mind.
gud luck guys!!!
lotssss of lovvveeeeeeeeeeessssssssssssss