its about him n her

he-i have fallen in love wit tis guy since sem 2.it was few months ago n the feelings has even grow frm like to love!too bad...it is an impossible relationship.we can be only frens!!i understand tis pretty well n i dun hope anything frm him since the day i love him.perhaps many of u will be wondering whts the point of loving a guy who dun love u!maybe i'm too stupid to do tis,i jus wanna love him n be real close frens wit him..he's not any special but i jus love the way he is.

till 2day,i realise tht it is very hurting when u do sumthing tht ppl dun appreciate!the words like "wht i care??" is even hurting n i feel lik HELL@_@!!i dunno whether he mean it or not but it really matters to me.i felt lik i'm a loser for doing stupid things b'cos of him.though i did not do anything BIG for him but if i could,i will!

i wanted to let go my feelings for him..i dowan to be any stupid anymore!can i do it???till now,i'm not sure but guess i will 1 day.i dunno how long will it take to cure the pain n sadness??i hope it will be soon.!!

{hahahha!!tis entry i save as draft for about a month alredi...now only rmbr to post oh!!sigh~~aiyooo....ccl ni dah busy ma}

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my 18th birthday

hey yah!!!its been a time since i last blog..
hmmm...i dunno whether i still can put my stories into words or not..
i've been lazying since las wed-my birthday!!i am so tired and sleepy all the day long..it seems lik no energy at all.i was suppose to blog about my birthday on thursday but my pc cacated d!!
so,i postpone it till 2day ler...

well i would like to start my story about my bbq party 1st....
at 1st i was so disappointed tht many ppl cnt make it to my party.the worst part is my class is having finals too.so,almost evry1 in fc30 can't cum to the party..then my dearest bb{minyee} cant cum b'cos she gotta work!!huhuhuhu its so saddening!!!evrything seems "mm soon lei"{not smooth}..
ppl were askin "how many ppl will be coming??"
i was stunned n seriously i dunno...sounds lame rite???yeai i know!!
then my buddies seng n theng help me to ask more ppl to cum...
i still rmbr the day b4,i still short of many bbq stuffs n i went to giant wit adel n mom to buy those stuffs...i felt so frustrated cos i cnt find the things tht i wan n mom is keep scolding me...i even release my anger in sunway pyramid n i almost cancel the party...luckily adel was there to console me~sigh~

then the next day finally is my birthday!!!
all my classmates wished me n i'm kinda happy ler...i totally forgot the problems tht i had.well..in short,i'm easily feel satisfied.
after exams,cas fetch me bec home wit gdah.while on the way bec,ruz called cas..he asked y did we went bec so early??he wanted to gimme my present.i was so happy to hear this though i know it might be a small present or even inexpensive present but its b'cos he's the one who gonna gimme.i'm happy!lolz~~
once i reach home,i start to become busy..wow!!!1st cucuk those balls wit satay stick,then go mini shop buy charcoal n ice.then walk to adel's hse to take the ice box.b4 tht,once i reach home,ruz called up..he said tht he wanna gimme the present n he said he might cum..huhuhuh~~~but at last he din cum oso lar.
well...party started at about 7sumthing....as time passed,many ppl came..not only many ppl but many unexpected ppl.but,i'm really glad tht they came.
so,i wanna thank to all the ppl who present on my birthday party..
theng,seng,adeline n tracy--->>thanks for all the help n u guys gimme great support when i'm down.thanks to theng for buying the chicken wing,adel for ordering the chicken wings.seng for bringin wenping n waijun to help up wit the settings n not to be forgotten tht he invite all our ex classmates frm 5a3 n almost evry1 turn up.
kohleong,yenting,sook kuen,li ching--->>thanks for the american chocolate cake..its very nice but too bad many ppl din get to taste it.i'm sorry!!my fault for cutting the cake not equally..huhuhuh!!
casyne,gdah n mel melvyn--->>thanks for coming though most of fc30 ppl din came n u guys took the trouble to turn up..yeai!!!i'm so touched!!though majority is my hi skool frens but u guys r important too..oh yeah to gdah n cas,thanks for the make up stuffz...ehehhe~~
waijun n wenping-->>thanks for u guys de help n the present...ehhehhe i know las time i alw talk bad bout u guys but u guys oso help me now..hahaha....
johan-->>thanks 4 ur weird+special present...wakakak..but i like it oh..i tot its a deco stuff mana tau..hehehhehe...
kevin,kylie,iggy-->>thanks for coming n sorry tht u guys din eat anything..thanks to iggy n kylie for the present n the meat balls tht u guys help me to buy.
pauline,guekmei,voonfei,yucheng,debbie,keran,billy,waikin kokor,wendy--->>thanks for coming n all the lovely pressies..

lastly but not least,to my family members who came too n the food tht they brought..thanks to daddy sponsor me the capital to buy those stuffs,n 2 great present for my birhtday!!!its cool!!n to mummy who help ler....muaksssiessss!!!!!

hmmm...did i left out any1???sorry if i did but thanks to evry1 who came yah!!!!
oh yeah thanks for the wishes for ppl who din come...

overall,i did enjoy my 18th birthday!!!though i'm a bit disappointed tht sum of my important frens like minyee n beelin n sum other ppl din turn up...but its ok!!i understand!!!till then,c yah guys!!!