why the fuck m i so blur!!!

no matter where i go,there will ppl saying "why r u so blur???"
yeah!!!miss chew cher lynn...y r u so blur????y?y?y?
dahla stupid!blur pulak me!!
i really hate being blur n stupid!!yet i am stupid n blur,no matter in skool or at home...can any1 tell me is there any medicine to get rid of stupidity n blurness???because of my stupidity,i bring trouble to ppl..seriously i feel like i'm a pain in the ass to the ppl tht who know me...i'm so sorry!!!i feel really bad!!i guess u guys will wish tht u have never meet miss mcc{mong cha cha} lik me..SORRY!!!!dun forgive me being stupid yah!!i wonder when can i be a lil bit more smart in doing things???when i wont be tht fucking blur??
argh!!!what have i done wrong in the past life??why m i being torture lik tis??i am being a nuisance to my frens..i keep complaining bout myself to them till they get really fed up!!i told them i'm sad all the time n they have to say "plse be happy" all the time..i know i'm a pain the ass to u guys..c!!i am being blur again..i mentioned it alredi n now i'm talking about it again..ccl!!!what the fuck u wan in life??wake up n come bec to the reality!!u better buck up ah!!!


2day mangkuk is going to c the doc for consultation..i hope he's alright n nothing bad will happen..i mean i hope he wont have to go for operation for his leg..i am terribly worried!!though i know its nothing much to worry bout but i jus hope he will be fine!!

argh blur blur blur blur + stupid stupid me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!