i'm sad

well i got my results 2 days ago..i've nvr expect 2 get 6a's.i thought i'll be gettin onli 3a's.however,it turn out 2 be quite ok.i'm quite satisfied wit it though it's not d best if u compare 2 ppl who get straight a's.i'm not trying 2 show off or wht but i jus wanna blog tis matter..i felt quite uneasy wit my life.it's pretty boring!!y??even when i get quite ok results,no1 is ther 2 share wit me.though many ppl{my family members} congrats me,but i still feel lonely n meaningless.now i kno gettin good results in spm is totally meaningless 2 me.i dunno since when my life start 2 become so blank..reli blank,i've no direction n i feel lik being left out.y is d world leaving me alone?i'm reli afraid of tis feeling n i tink tis is not quite rite.huh!i jus dunno how 2 explain it.since when my life become so lame??i've no frens 2 share my hapiness..i've even lost a bestfren..wht else??most of them seems not happy wit their results..wht can i say??i reli dunno!i'll rather keep my mouth shut bout it or else ppl wil start hav bad thoughts of me.i wud say i'm jus lucky 2 get such results.but,i do put effort in it.though its not 100%,i wud say 65%..
suddenly i think of a guy tht i **** him 4 bout a yr...i jus cnt stop thinkin of him...i dunno y n when he appears in my heart..i kno its impossible between us but i still cnt stop thinking of him..my frens ask me 2 4get bout tis guy's excistance but i reli cnt do it..i've tried many times but no1 can replace him 4 now.i jus wanna see n talk 2 him as if we're close frens but tht oso hardly 2 be possible..life is so so sooo complicated n i'm leading a DAMN f***ed up life..
when wil my life be better??i jus wish 2 lead a simple life n have a couples of good frens tht can share my sadness n happiness 2gether..at least i can tel them probs..is tht so hard?m i so hard 2 get along wit?
i reli miss hi skool..seriously i gotta admit tis..maybe u wud tink i'm kinda lame but yes!!i'm a lamer..many ppl dowan 2 get bec 2 hi skool life when thy entered coll but not me..i reli miss evry moments in hi skool..i mean d good memories la of cos..evry1 of my frens who entered coll seems vry differen..it's like thy become another person or maybe i'm too sensitive..i'm not like tht las time but now my life has become so damnn dull...
omg!!God...i gotta thank u 4 giving me such ok results but i reli hope i wud find myself{d real ccl}...is tht too much frm me??huh!!i dunno,i guess not..
well...tht's all crapness frm me..guess no1 wil read my blog..