i can't believe this

2 of my frens said he's not bad looking!!gosh!!r u guys sure??
my fren fat fat saw almost all of my classmate...
haha but her main point is to c MANGKUK{the guy tht i'm lurvin}..so we went to 1u for a movie..unfortunately the movie's tickets are selling fast..the next show will be 4.50..it will be too late..argh!!n i din c mangkuk!!kinda down!!fine!!we walk around in 1u..then suddenly i saw mangkuk at dream world..he was like shocked when he c me..he again ask RM9 frm me...bloody ass!!i know he dun mean it n he just wanna say sumthing to me i guess..lame!!whatsoever???!!i'm in love wit him..actually i care bout how he think of me??i really care though i alw scold him..but seriously i dun mean it..he makes me do so..why can't he talk to me a lil bit more polite??argh!!why must he call me mangkuk??i dun mind but he dun gimme the attention i wan frm him...i know i'm not sum1 special but i just wanna get closer wit him...but he treat like as if i'm his enemy..sad sad=(
gm wanted to c mangkuk's pict..so i showed him!!i thought she will kutuk sampai he dun worth a single cent...wakakkak wht m i talkin about???anywayz..she say for malay,he's not bad..when gm say not bad it means okla...but but???gm!!r u sure??did u c properly??ok thats not the main point!!when i like sum1,i dun c whether is he rich or handsome or whatever....i like him for what he is!!he doesnt like me,it doensnt matter but as i said many times...i just wanna get closer as a fren wit him...i dun wish to fight wit him all the time...seriously sumtimes i do feel tired of doing that..n i feel bad that i have to say sumthing bad bout this mangkuk!!this is not wht i want!!
i alw say i'm scared to like him because i know thats impossible for him to like me..n i alw fall for the wrong guy..this feeling is reli haunting me!!*no jokes*
i dun dare to say i'm serious this time but i hope i can take it easy!!
:::::thts all for now!!!!!:::::